so what happens now?

So what happens now?

Wait and see. But still believe.

In myself.

And while I'm at it... I'd like to thank...

one of the few very good friends I have in hall.

Thanks for doing whatever you did to show your support for me as Sports Sec.
Thanks for the encouragment and helping me in all ways possible.
Thanks for taking up horrid tasks you really didn't wanna do, but did anyway to give me "face".
Thanks for saving my ass with regard to you-know-what.
Thanks for praising me (though on hindsight i think i really don't deserve) just to boost my ego and make me feel more confident + sure about myself.
Thanks for the advice, advice, and even more advice.
Thanks for cracking some seriously lame jokes and doing stupid things to make me less stress.

Wah lau, thank you so much, your head will balloon into dunno wad proportions lor. But I really appreciate it. So I guess one more thank you won't hurt?

*thump chest with fist* Thanks friend!

ruoying requested an update. here it is... :)

My dear friend Ruoying has been constantly urging me to update my blog, and that my Corrine May song-thing doesn't count. Ok lor... *bleah*

Things have been rather hectic for me. Just slogged through what I deem a killer week. And then I wasted the whole weekend away. Saturday was spent doing JCRC photo shoot. There are 16 people in the committee, each one had to go through makeup (note that there are 10 gals so makeup takes ages!), some hair positioning thing and then pose in front of a camera, lightings and a rather quirky photographer.

Makeup artist was very nice. Cos she said I looked like some girl who won some pageant in NUS. Obviously just trying to make me feel better, since stupid Junxiong kept trying to take photo of me with clips in my hair and mouth pouted (that goondusamy!). But hey, I don't care. If she says I look like a pageant queen, I shall believe her. Muahah. The photographer was weird though. He asked me to stare into space and look inspiring. Then asked me to smile and not show my teeth or else my eyes will be small. Then asked me to smile with my eyes and cheeks. Hmmm? Me da pageant winner ok! (haha... don't tell ppl leh, I paiseh so I din tell any of the JCRC members). :P

Weiliang the publication secretary was hilarious because he came in a light PURPLE shirt and some PURPLE-PINK motiff tie. Said he took very long to choose it and even purposely bought the yucky tie. But everyone (including the staff at the studio) was against his "questionable" dress sense. He was later known as "purple guy". Damn funny. If I can, I'll post some pics that we all took to while away time, we spent the whole day there!

Sunday was spent sleeping the whole day. Felt quite guilty because my parents just came back and I didn't even talk to them much. Just kept sleeping. Too tired! I didn't even have dinner with them and I could tell that my dad was rather disappointed. Sigh, next weekend he'll be overseas again, I won't be having that father-daughter thingy we usually have for quite a while. Come to think of it, I haven't been spending time with my granny too. Used to call her and gossip with her over the phone or just go down and visit her. The last time I went, I borrowed her Cheongsam.

What kind of machine have I become?

The nice part of Sunday was having dinner with the MSisters. We haven't met in the longest of time and it sure felt nice to be almost all together again. Quite a lot of updates from the girls. Sigh, my single society is going to crumble apart. Seems like only the president (ie: me) and a minority of people are still eligible for this "coveted" club. I miss the gals. Hopefully Zhao and me can do some shopping thing soon. Kit!!! Where are you!!!?!????!!!

So there, another boring day in my life. Ruoying, you regret asking me to update? Oh yeah... Kong and Dingyi are in a small section of Seventeen mag, along with Jianming, one of the top5 bachelors(??) in hall. Cool.

Let it go. I need to believe

Excerpts from Corrine May's songs. Very nice. Incredible how songs can mirror what you actually feel.


Let it go, let it be
Don't waste all your emotion
on this tit-for-tat machine
Let it go, let it be
Let it go
Don't go wasting your emotions
No one wins if we keep score
Let it go, let it be
Let it go

I see the morning glory
It winds upon the tree
It tells the untold story
of how things were meant to be
You left your legacy
Embraced the struggle in the face of mortality
I know I'm not alone in this
Help me believe
I can be free
I can be free from this place
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains
It's still the same old story
This great divide
Between the want and waste
Now I'm trying to find my place
I'm just a single voice
What can I do to erase
All this misunderstanding
All this anarchy
Six degrees of separation
Sometimes it's so hard to see
That we are not alone in this
I need to believe

Its hard, its only the beginning,. I have to see it through somehow.

Lets get the quality back in our lives

I always complain to myself about not having enough nice clothes to wear, but my myopia doesn't allow me to see 2 wardrobes (one at home and one in hall) packed full with clothes. And I still buy more of them anyway. I don't give two hoots spending $100 on my hair, but a $30++ dinner is considered expensive. Yet seriously, do we need a new clothes, funky haircuts, pretty shoes or some refreshing facials to feel good about ourselves, about our lives?

Perhaps.

But cheapo Huijing has a few ways to make you feel good about yourself and think "hey, my life is wonderful afterall". And its very easy to do! (plus since I am so nice, I shall share with my friends some tips...)

1. Change your hair parting ie: change side, put centre/side parting, put hairband etc. When I put hairband, the Tropi people say I look damn auntie, especially with my specs. Ok wad... different look lor. The new look might give you some confidence in whatever you do and you might walk with a spring in your step. :)

2. Have a healthy exercise routine. Though I have mild Bronchitis, the 400m I ran for NTU meet made me feel better (I can actually smile to myself), albiet being very very breathless (what to do.. yandao aka junwen was there... haha). Timing was horrid though, and I hope to cut down on my timing. I wonder if its really the bronchitis or my ultra lack of fitness that made me unable to breath after 200m. Ok out of point. Remember, all work no play means total no life, all play no work means exam will da bao.

3. Drink lots of water. Water is known to be good for our bodies. But I'm sure many of you didn't know that drinking water actually helps to relieve stress. So when you are stressed or feel like you are going to break down, take deep breaths and drink plenty of water.

4. Keep a to-do list. A lot of us have a lot of things to handle and manage, and we never seem to have enough time for everything. Prioritise and jot down details/events if you are scatterbrained like me. I have a calendar on my board for major events in the month (eg:quiz, meeting, hall events...), and I'm gonna plan a schedule for my recess week soon. :)

5. Don't give a f*** what others think, but I must admit, easier said than done. Most people don't really care however, and as long as you do whatever you can in that particular situation, give those circumstances, you have done your best. As long as you can live with yourself. Plus studies have shown that focusing on the task instead of what people think the end result SHOULD be makes you a more productive person.

6. Spoil yourself occassionally. You can treat yourself after a hard day's work by eating Swensens ice-cream (its apparently $26 for an earthquake, fries and 2 side dishes), do some home-made facial mask (I wanted to try the cucumber thingy on my eyes, but there were only mushrooms in the fridge) or go shopping but keeping expenditure modest. I went to Chinatown today and there was this fabulous shoe shop! The wedges were very very nice and if I was not so tall, I'd have bought at least 3 pairs of them. Good thing they were very high, and if I wear, I'd be 185cm. Bought a happy looking slipper($26), and while many say its too bright, I don't care. Cos I'm happie~

7. Spend time with your loved ones. Need I say more? If you love them, spending time with them always make you happy and blessed. I have my parents and brother. Boyfriend still pending (till my bronchitis is fully gone).


Haha.. actually nothing much. Just that I see so many of my friends having so many things to do, many feeling stressed and tired... To all you people,

JIA YOU~~!!!

I also gotta pull my socks up and add some oil into my engine. Project mates are more free-riding than me (means I do the whole damn project), and there are 2 assignments, 2 quizes, and one debate waiting for me at the start of next week. BAHHH.

I DON'T need a guy no more (for now at least)

I take back my words in my previous post. I don't think I'd be actively seeking a guy at the moment. Why?

I got a darn respiratory disease otherwise known as Bronchitis.

So if I meet any good-looking or attractive guy, I might become breathless, hyper-ventilate and die from the lack of oxygen. Imagine how ugly I'd look in front of a potential boyfriend-material as I gasp for air and contort my face in agony. Worse if we only just met!! Think Angeline's bronchitis is in a worse condition than me... mine is still rather mild and at the preliminary stage. Good thing she already has Weiliang and need not go in search of guys like me.

I feel very fortunate to have such wonderful wing-mates(Tropi-Moonlight), who on knowing that I am in search of a guy, stole all my bras and panties from my wardrobe and clothes rack, and in place, put lots of briefs! Guy's briefs leh. I took a photo in case you guys don't believe me.



Mad right? Can't believe my freshie would actually volunteer to donate his underwear to those mad women. What the hell?!?

Anyway, the weather is too hot to feel romantic or horny or whatsover. I hug my fan as I do my work, use the laptop, or stare into space. My fridge is a substitute for aircon, but after buying Marriott durian mooncake (super nice!) and keeping it in the fridge, aircon has a durian waft. And the smell stinks on a hot day.


p/s: to a certain bhb fan, i dun think i will go breathless if i see you.. haha... most prob if i see my fav subcommer... muahah!